Monday, June 21, 2010

Dreams.

I fell asleep one night and got a really clear picture of my Grandmother sitting in her favorite green Adirondack chair on her porch. With her gray streaked, thinning hair rolled into a bun. Her loose house dress on. Her brown all seeing eyes, on the sea.



It occurred to me that she'd been haunting me for a while. Gradually building up and solidifying her presence. Over time when the random voice would sound inside my head. It was her voice. When out of my mouth would come her sayings.

Now I see her clearly. So clearly in fact that when her mouth moves I can hear her voice. That is, when she talks. You see my grandmother was a listener.

She listened more than she ever spoke. She watched all those around her with an eagle, if kind eye. The weight of it fell upon you only when she wished it. She saw deeper than anyone ever wanted to admit. When she spoke more often than not, we had to listen.

It hurt more often than not, that truth. She wrapped it in her sayings, her parables. In the end they were just that, truth.

Be still. Be quiet. Listen.

6 comments:

Jeffe Kennedy said...

That's lovely that your grandmother is visiting you. You must need her wisdom right now. I love, too, that you're listening.

Chudney Defreitas-Thomas said...

Thanks Jeffe. I'm definitely listening.

Jax Cassidy said...

Very profound post today, Chuds. Well, you are entitled those moments. :) Miss ya!

Chudney Defreitas-Thomas said...

Jax We miss you here too!

Dancing Branflake said...

I have such a clear image of your grandmother now. Her memory is kept alive by your wonderful writing. I bet she's listening to all your wonderful stories with an open heart.

Wynter Daniels said...

Nice picture you've painted.