Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Determination/ Life in general.

I know I've posted a lot of photos of me at 5k's lately. I'm recycling this one because I don't have any of me crossing the finish line.

For me, running is determination in motion.

I came to this conclusion when I was on the track at the gym when I realized that I ran continuously for 20mins no walk run, just a steady jog (slow as molasses I tell yah) but I did it with a minimal of huffing and puffing.

It dawned on me then, what I was seeing was my determination put to motion. In the same way I approached life and writing , it was the same way I approached running. I've had a few bouts of the what ifs with my writing, paralysis brought on by fear. Same goes for everyday life.

When I decided to go back out into the work place I took the very first job offered to me because it was safe. I didn't have to face rejection. I enjoyed it, but it payed less and I spent three years in a position that ultimately ended up burning me out.

I learned from it and I learned things about myself but I was afraid to jump. It took this new job and reconnecting with old friends and connecting with new ones to remind me that hidden under all that fear was determination that kept me moving ever forward, even when it didn't feel that way.

It took a new friend to bring up the subject of the gym and running on a treadmill to lead me eventually to my epiphany.

"Running, is my determination in motion."

My aunts have always said I'm stubborn. They've always said that I'm strong and I've always countered that with  "I just put one foot in front of the other". To me that's just what you do. But you see, it's a lesson I learned from my mother, in fact my entire family.

Never stop moving. Never stop striving. Even when life gets in the way. Even when you get knocked down. Keep your determination in motion.


Thursday, May 17, 2012

Wednesday, May 16, 2012


So I didn't look like this in my spin class today. Recently a few coworkers and I decided that we needed to get in shape. So we've been running and today we went to spin class. I guess where I'm leading with this is that we all need motivation. And  we need friends to help motivate us, because we as humans need to feel a part of something.

At the same time we need to be self motivated as well. Even though my friends couldn't make it last Saturday I decided to run my second 5k by myself. Why you ask why torture myself. Well for one thing I want to be healthy. I want to have more energy and more discipline so I can achieve my goals. And damn it I want to be able to eat cake.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Getting a smart phone was supposed to make my life easier!

Ok so let me start by saying I love my droid. No I'm not getting paid to say that. I do I love the convience of actually being able to get on tweetdeck without having to boot up my mini laptop (the big one has been taken over by the man).

Now does that mean that I'm constantly on tweetdeck, actually it means I'm on it about the same as I was before.

My problem: My phone is telling me that it's storage is full.

Yet, the dumb games that I'd like to have uninstalled because I'm not interested and I can do without. Yeah those that I didn't ask for. I can't unintsall them.

After much searching on this new fangled piece of equipment I've found a way to free up storage. I've also been reminded that you never stop learning. Though it may cause you to curse at an inanimate object and wish for the olden days when things weren't this confusing. You never stop learning.

So if you hear me yelling it's probably me in the midst of learning something new.

Friday, May 4, 2012

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

The UGLY Factor.

So no doubt you heard about the UGLY Meter App. What I don't get is all the people that are out there paying for it. Just line right up, dish out your money to be told, you're beautiful, you're average, or you're ugly. It's based on symmetry.

Look I don't have a problem with people working a hard and making a buck,  but really I can just see it now some girl who thought she was a 10 crying because this app told her that she's an 8. Oh wait maybe even a 5. Why does this annoy me?

Because we don't need an app to tell us whether or not we look good. No I don't think it's a fun thing to do. I think there will be people with insecurities that will take this apps reading of whether or not they are attractive to heart. As a society we are obsessed with how we look, this is just another symptom of our disease.

I'm attractive, I'm not pretty when I cry and I know enough not to let me smile merge into a grin when I'm in a picture. I didn't need an app to tell me all of that.That's my two cents, which is all the  money this apps creators will be getting from me.